Tankini at 20

It makes me feel like a slut
the swimsuit my mother bought me for my birthday
nice material though. Wish they made racing suits with material as thick as that, but its probly just the same material double layered.
The top could pass for a shirt with the proper jacket

ugh

thats all I feel like when I put it on. Am I overreacting?
still

ugh

Especially in my family, birthdays seem especially designed for the embarressment of the born

This year's haul
-2 dresses, one long and one short
-1 blouse
-1 tankini
-1 pair of cute unreasonably painful red shoes
-1 pair of misfit pants
-1 suprisingly good purse
-How I Met Your Mother Season 2


So I'm 20 now. When I was young marriage was always talked about as something for the 20-22 year olds. Its odd but, if I had the money now, it wouldn't seem like a bad option.
Added to that change I'm working full time now, and since I've come back from school my parents have turned up annoying. They've never really been so before. I'm a very patient person.
At the moment I made these transitions in thinking and lifestyle it felt weird and surreal but once I'd made them, I didn't feel any different.
I miss going to church with my family though. Things were easier then, and while the people at Incarnation are very welcoming it hasn't been long enough to really get to know anybody, so its still kinda lonley sometimes. Actually the lonliness comes over at my house more often than at Church.
I was glad to see Jason though, and Kevin and Megan and Brandon, even if he did disappear right b4 lunch!
Technically I turn 20 at 1am tommarow but I'm not sure what I'll be doing. Eliot's taking somewhere but he won't tell me anything except to dress comfortably and tell my parents I'll be gone all day. I don't think tommarow will be so wearing.